Current mood:

pensive

Even playing games can get you thinking lots...
So I was on skype the other day with a friend and her roomie for around 6 hours, was good fun I really enjoyed the conversation ^_^

In the mist of all that we kinda like played a little game of "get to know you" it was a case of I said to them both they could ask me any sort of question they'd like no matter how embarrassing, normal, kinky or personal it may have been. I really didn't mind it and I did the same back to them.

Some of the questions and talking we did however got me thinking a lot about how I act what I do and when do I do things, most noteably when it comes to matters of the heart.

In general as a guy and some-one who is very laied back and open minded it's very difficult to offend me with such questions nor is it easy for two other people to embarrass me or irk me with their sexual advancements on each other, seriously two people could be having sex on the sofa next to me and I wouldn't bat an eye lash I'd just keep watching TV or whatever it is I'm doing, sound odd? Maybe it is but thats how at ease I am or can be.

But when it comes to myself, I realized that when it comes to making the first move I'm rather patient not so much as waiting for the right time but it's more of a case of if I make the first move I worry I might make it at the wrong time and that the other person is going to take it the wrong way even though I am very friendly and dont mind the friendly advances vice-versa of course if that be the case I tend to assure that I have a loyalty issue and anything that may happen must only happen as friends and not go any further than is considered necessary, the fact I have a crush on someone else at the moment and would rather let any of that happen with her.

Well to put it in simple terms I wouldn't make any form of advances with out me being comfortable about it, that the person I'm advancing on I know well and I also know they're comfortable with it for a fact and wouldn't take it the wrong way and I sure as hell wouldn't make any if I knew they had an other half already. I can flirt I have no problem with flirting so I'm not totally obscure to sexual advances.

I dont know if i'm explaining this very well at all I just seem so pensive at this moment I've always had difficulty expressing my heart to others I mean only having one girlfriend before hand that I already knew for two years before we decided on that was a little easier, but two years of the fact that SHE had a crush on me made it easy...now working for someone elses affections is different, much different.

I do not know if that same girl happens to read my LJ, but if you do I hope this allows you to understand me that little bit better however less-sense it might make.